a book that touches on depression

hello! i’m looking for book recommendations that touch on depression :’)

i want a very raw portrayal of depression, as someone who struggles with major depression for many years now.

it would be good if it covers topics such as suicide, self harm, and especially low self esteem.

the book can be either:
1) very depressing, very raw
2) depressing but has a hint of hope, teaches you to love yourself

^ i’m good with both and would greatly appreciate if you label which

i cannot read books with bad writing, and i absolutely love flowery language and japanese literature. i also prefer female authors.

two books i can remember reading that i really liked is “lost flowers of alice hart” and “norwegian wood”