Mid-twenties. I gave up on life. I don't do anything in my days, just sleeping and playing videogames until I destroy myself. I play until my head explodes and my eyes turn all red. When I play videogames I don't think about anything and I'm not crushed by my reality, that's why I play them and why I'm addicted. I don't do drugs or drink alcohol. I'm just an empty shell, my soul gave up when my body is still going strong. Happy people seem aliens to me.
It's like being in a tunnel closed on both sides, there is absolutely no light. My sense of worth is absolutely destroyed, I wish I could delete my existence from this world. I'm convinced there is no hope or future for me.
What can I read to find hope or to challenge my beliefs about myself and life?
Thank you
by BananaNucleare