This is going to be a very specific request, and I’m not sure if what I’m looking for even exists, but I’m hoping someone can help me find:
**a memoir by a** **female author who struggles with her sexuality, but NOT sexuality in terms of ‘oh help I might be gay’…** rather about one or more of the following situations:
* attracted to men, but having difficulty trusting men (due to negative experiences, or maybe just the effect of living in a patriarchy and being confronted with misogyny all the time)
* physical illness/disability that makes sex difficult or painful or impossible
* bisexual and wondering if committing to a monogamous relationship with 1 person would mean she always ‘misses’ aspects of being with someone from the gender she’s not dating i.e. if she’s with a man, she ends up missing being with a woman, and the other way round. (no biphobia please! it’s a genuine and valid question that *some* bisexual people, definitely not all, may struggle with)
* internalised shame surrounding the idea of having sex / of being perceived in a naked an vulnerable state, but NOT (solely) due to religion (I’d prefer a book that doesn’t focus a lot on religion)
* identifies as asexual but not aromantic, or aromantic but not asexual
One single book doesn’t need to touch on ALL of these points; even if only one of them is included I will be grateful for the recommendation!
(not sure if this post requires the NSFW tag, please let me know if it does)
by hauntedatthelibrary