Finally got myself to read more, and I am trying to develop myself so I can solve more problems in my life, but after reading for like 5 hours today, I can’t sleep because I have horrible neck pain.

So annoying. When you solve one problem, then another one pops up that you were not expecting. I bought a sun chair a while ago to have a comfortable reading chair, but it broke right away because it was cheap, and I don’t have money. So I was reading in my office chair and that makes me just tense my neck muscles in any position (Unless i am sitting straight up but then I would have to hold the book really high with my arms).

Trying to develop yourself to the point of being able to function in society or get a job takes an annoying amount of money and luck. I thought if I just buy some books and read, then I can start to fix stuff, but I just cause other problems by reading. Now I need to develop some strategy of reading without ruining my neck so I can sleep. I need to find some good position in the bed probably. But then again doctors say that you should not lay in bed unless you are trying to sleep so you develop an association of sleeping when you go to bed.

I took some pain pills and not I don’t hate existence quite as much. It is just annoying how complex life is, and when I try to solve one problem it creates (at least) one new problem.

by Veg0ku