I dont live at home anymore for years but what still effects me w nightterrors is that theyd come innmy room random nights shout names at me and start beating me or break my stuff bc theyd believe whatever bs my bullies would come up with. Last visit she asked me if she was a bad mom. I told my her Im trying to leave stuff in the past and heal with therapy but that my therapist cried when I told her about my childhood. She started screaming at me that I dont see her efforts and that she only threw my stuff out the window to not beat me. Note my mom is a nurse and later did a masters in social work. I kinda lost my shit and left early from my stay.
Every year shed wish for a book for her birthday or mothersday. idk if I should give her some book about working on yourself or something like “how not to be a shitty parent”. Obv her therapy didnt really help.
by lunaticalwitch_tv