Grew up evangelical and homeschooled. Any recommendations about grieving what could have been?

I grew up very sheltered and very Christian. I’ve done a lot of personal growth, learning and all that stuff.

But I find myself grieving over what could have been. How I missed out on having friends growing up. Missed out on common high school experiences. Missed out on a good career because I was forced to go to a small private school and couldn’t study what I wanted. So I spend a lot of mental energy mourning the idea of my childhood because I was essentially cheated out of it. Which is an exhausting way to live and I’m trying to get through that.

Anyone experience something similar and have a book recommendation?

by TriforceOfPower3