a book about love and shame through a het man’s lens

Hello,

I’m searching for a novel with the themes of love and shame in heterosexual relationships, for better context and explanation of my request, I’m a 23 years old man, I’ve never had a long lasting relationship but I’ve had (what I consider many) short ones, and they’ve all ended with me feeling shameful about my vulnerability. It has occurred so many times that I’m mostly convinced that shame is what’s awaiting me after every women I would be interested in

I’m looking for a novel that talks about that, and that could provide me with some insight regarding the matter

thank you

by RayMinerva