ugly uncontrollable crying type book

i’m not very good at reading as in i love it but often find myself doing other things instead, as we go into summer i’m wanted to get back into to reading on the beach so im looking for book suggestions.

i love sad books, not broken heart sad like sad sad. like ruin you and make u think about everything differently kind of sad. i don’t love romance that much i find it’s all the same to me, i prefer plots around illness or trauma or death. some books i have read and loved include:

• a little life (hanya yanagihara)
  -my sisters keeper
• the tattooist of auschwitz( heather morris)
  -flowers for algernon
• blood family (anne fine)
• my sisters keeper (justine larbalestler)

please just anything that will make me cry