Hey readers, I need a book to wake up my soul, I mean I used to have a very delicate soul and a very wide imagination with the kind of optimism that people thought unreal, people were always thinking I am stoned while I wasn't at all, I didn't even know anything about drugs, till I became 16 and lost my father, I felt to much pain and I remember that I was trying intentionally to kill my emotions thinking that would make me strong, I went from the kindest person ever, to someone that people feared, I've done that on purpose, I managed to build that reputation, on purpose, I was also intoduced to weed and loved it and became stoned all the time for real, for 12 years I couldn't quit but I made it recently, now I just drink alcohol occassionally and smoke cigarretes, I want to quit those too, but I can't, I always want to alter my conciousness, I believe I lost my soul on purpose, and I thought it's reversible as long as I am doing it while iam aware what iam doing but it's not, I want a book to get me to feel again, to have my beuatiful optimistic mind again, I am sorry for being too long but my years I being wasted with no progress, I just do my dull job and unable to study anything as I am always busy with calming my mind, I need a life saver book, please !
by Public_Elephant1920