AND SO I WENT from eighteen to nineteen. Each day the sun would rise and set, The flag would be raised and lowered. Each Sunday I would have a date with my dead friend's girl. I had no idea what I was doing or what I was going to do. For my courses I would read Claudel and Racine and Eisenstein, but they meant almost nothing to me. I made no friends in classes, and hardly knew anyone in the dorm. The others in the dorm thought I wanted to be a writer, because I was always alone with a book, but I had no such ambition. There was nothing I wanted to be.
I tried to talk about this feeling with Naoko. She, at least, would be able to understand what I was feeling with some degree of precision, I thought. But I could never find the words to express myself. Strange, I seemed to have caught her word-searching sickness.
by SoFarYetToGo
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In the Distance by Hernan Diaz. It’s exceptionally well written alternative western following the most unlucky person trudging through life.
Dino Buzzati, *The Tartar Steppe*.