Sorry if this sounds messy and stupid💀. I’m not a native English speaker and this kind of a vent?lol
I don’t know if anyone feels the same way. I feel guilty for not being interested in reading from a young age, and I feel jealous of people who started early. For me, this was partly due to smartphone addiction basically. I got an ipad when I was 11. What is sad is that during the few times I couldn’t use my ipad, either because of technical issues or because mom would hide it lol, I would actually turn to reading as a replacement instead, but I would go back to my ipad when I could. What’s even sadder is that I knew I was wasting my time on electronic devices while I was wasting it, but I just couldn’t stop scrolling. Even my family members constantly advised me to make better use of my time, and warned me that I will regret wasting my time, which I do now, at 20. I know 20 is still young but I feel like your teenage years + uni years are those “golden years” when you have plenty of time to consume and build a foundation of education that will aid you to produce and contribute to society (or to whatever) in your twenties. Has anyone ever felt that way? I know I can’t turn back time but I still can’t help but mourn the loss of what I could have been had I started earlier, rather than begin now, when I won’t have much time soon because of life to catch up and read as freely as I want. I don’t know how to describe it but I feel fake for not starting earlier.
End of vent? Again, sorry for wasting your time with this block of stupidity.💀
by SlyKingdom1
3 Comments
I was forced to read books by my goverment and I can say that I dislike books.
Not all people who have read a book like them.
Dude you’re 20. Nothing you did before 18 counted, you’ve basically just started your life. Start reading now.
Dude your English is great and this was not stupid <3 Show yourself some kindness because you were just a kid and those things are purposefully addictive. You were not and you are not stupid. You’re always learning and your life has barely begun, there’s so much you have to see and hear and read! It’s okay to feel like you missed out, but don’t fixate so much on what you could have done that you end up missing out on today. Read to have fun. Read to learn. Reading doesn’t have to “contribute” to anything except your own happiness. And there’s so much happiness in books out there, so go find yours!! (If it’s any comfort, you’ll never be able to read every single book out there anyway so… Worrying just means you suffer twice.)