This is about to be a long post. Maybe this will help me with my ~*~FeELiNGS~*~. So TLDR: Like many I am going through a tough time. Don’t know my “purpose” or my “why”. Any genre really, fiction or nonfiction. I just want to feel ok again.
Hey everyone. First time poster. I’m really struggling right now. Financially, things aren’t great. I have enough money to get by but would be totally unprepared for an emergency (car issues/maintenance, unexpected bill). It’s stressful.
I’m questioning if I actually love my husband or if I just feel safe. I find myself constantly irritated with him. I take a lot of my stress out on him.
I’m really tired of my job. Switching jobs isn’t really an option as there aren’t many opportunities to make what I do right now and I can’t afford a pay cut. I dread getting out of bed. I dread being at work. I find myself trying to get under a customers skin when I feel disrespected or perceive them in a negative way.
I have no friends. I had a best friend for awhile but we had a falling out. I see her at work nearly every day. We work in different departments but she’s still there. I still see her daily. It’s tough on me. I miss her but I’m angry with her.
I feel all around lonely. I’m struggling with my faith (Christianity, no denomination) and doubts and questioning things. I feel guilt for that.
Anyway if you made it this far, thank you. I feel this was therapeutic. Hopefully my post makes it. I would love any book recs you may have for me to hopefully turn my perception around!!
by ssaperackcuf