i’ve been avoiding reading this book even though it’s been on my tbr for so long. i was very afraid.
through the entire start i regretted it but couldn’t put it down. i found myself thinking about an online relationship when i was 16 and they were 21, and how it had ruled my life for years in a negative way. i became addicted to that validation and lost all respect and value for myself, until i was involved with countless people older than me.
as i read i felt that my hurt was nothing compared to vanessa’s, and i felt guilty for ever even thinking i had a right to be hurt.
though the age gap was not as extreme and i never met any of these people in real life, i found myself in these pages continuously, and while i felt seen, i also felt ashamed for being dramatic.
this book made me realize how many layers, how many aspects of so many situations are not able to be explained or ever fully understood.
My Dark Vanessa is quickly becoming a favorite because i’ve never known anyone to “know me” the way these pages do. but deep down i feel invalidated, i have no right to be hurt
by OkEntry1300