My sister and I were raised by our dad and the three of us were as close as it can get. We were best friends and did everything we could together. To say our love and bond in our small family was strong is an extreme understatement. Recently our dad had some health issues but nothing serious until he really just stopped taking care of himself like he had. We talked him into going to the hospital and he was admitted. They ran tests and found several issues with his lungs including COPD but dad kept his youthful spirit and was still his goofy self. He was even going to be leaving in a day or two to go to a skilled nursing place for around 3 days. My partner and I saw him Sunday, my sister stopped by Monday and we all chatted on the phone and laughed. Everything seemed like it was going about the best it could considering the circumstances, until we got the call late Monday night. He had suddenly went into cardiac arrest and they tried everything to bring him back but we lost him. That was yesterday and it has been almost 24hours without him and I am just overwhelmed and trying to stay afloat in between tears and planning and anger and talking over beautiful or funny memories. We are broken. His 72nd birthday would’ve been October 22nd. He was the sweetest, most caring human who never met a stranger and would do anything for anybody even when he didn’t have the means to help. He was talented in many ways including a well known bass player, artist, and inventor of a device used at Yellowstone for people with disabilities to help them feel and hear the geyser vibrations. But most of all, he was proud of his daughters and loved us two more than anything and he wasn’t afraid to talk about it. I’m in search of a good book to help with these times. We have lost several loved ones in our lives so this isn’t our first time dealing with extreme grief, this is just the worst pain and grief we have ever been through. We are also not religious. TIA for any suggestions and if I don’t get back to you all, it is just due to this loss and coping.
TLDR: My sister and I lost our father unexpectedly and are looking for grief books. This isn’t the first traumatic loss but it is the absolute worst and harder than any before. We aren’t religious. TIA
by Ashne44