I live recluse and disabled, and I have accepted this as my life. Lately, I’ve been too tired to leave my bedroom and my family doesn’t want to see me upstairs. Reading books used to be a love of mine, but now it feels overwhelming, and even reading on my phone hurts my eyes.
I can’t afford an e-book reader. I wanted to create a comfortable space in my bedroom to read, but it’s not possible. The lack of comfort is affecting my ability to enjoy reading. I believe forcing myself to do something is counterproductive. I’ve tried reading before bed, but I can’t bring myself to do it.
I’m looking for ideas from fellow neurodivergent and depressed individuals on how to regain my interest in reading. Even starting with a small book seems impossible.
Sometimes I feel ashamed, but I remind myself that it’s okay to be in a different place than others and to avoid comparing myself. Translated this text as I’m not English, thank you x
by i_might_be_devon
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Spotify premium includes audio books. I’ll sometimes start on the audio book and move over to my psychical book if I choose.
I find audiobooks a lot less energy draining. You can find free ones on YouTube or libby. The librivox app is good too for anything that’s not under copyright protection anymore. I just lay in bed conserving my energy and concentrate on the steady pace of narration. It’s great for staying on task because unlike reading from a page, the story doesn’t stop when your concentration breaks but continues and stops your thoughts from drifting.