I have flashbacks every day. I live with my dad who is infantile and sadistic. Seriously. Yet he’s getting old and unraveling. Major problem for me. I feel full of confusion that I can understand the manipulation because I’m mentally reduced in function.
I feel so much anger yet I used to be frozen and graceful.
I feel happy that I’m improving. Joy at material things improving but those are dependent on my fathers dime.
I left my online shitty connections. I’m feeling more lonely due to that.
My therapist understands. She says I’m like a young child exploring and recovering.
Any recommendations on reading? I need to read.
I need to grow up and leave.
by fourhell