So here’s the thing, I feel like I am so out of touch with reality it hurts.
How did I turn up to be this way? I was supposed to have great education because of the schools I’ve been to, but I don’t think I’ve learned a thing because of my disinterested teenage mind. I am putting an emphasis on the ‘great schools I’ve been to’ because it surrounds me with people who are well integrated, high functioning and generally brilliant/ competitive. Which makes my guilt and shame only grow. Now I am 25, former daily marijuana user for 5 years and my mind has turned into something I can’t even make sense of. I am 3 months clean yet still mostly numb and careless. I want to care about the world I am in, about people in my life but I am too detached from reality and now. The world‘s of people I interact with are too different from mine for me to feel like I have any common ground I can develop something onto. Every day I feel like I am building a smaller box for myself and it’s getting harder to find a path towards bigger boxes.
Now as I said, I just want to become more in touch with the reality people are living in. I want to know more about history and about things that will bring me a deeper sense of care for the daily. I want to broaden my perspective, to feel like I am not aloof. I want to learn about the struggles people face in the daily as well as social systemic issues I should know about. I don’t want to feel like a spoiled child who did not manage to grow up. And I am willing to take whatever action it requires, starting from curing my supposedly educated (worst kind) fraud ignorant ass.
So I am asking you to just write the first book that comes to your mind when you were reading my troubles.
by Tall_Meal_2732
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A Short History of Nearly Everything by Bill Bryson
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Blurb: “In A Walk in the Woods, Bill Bryson trekked the Appalachian Trail—well, most of it. In A Sunburned Country, he confronted some of the most lethal wildlife Australia has to offer. Now, in his biggest book, he confronts his greatest challenge: to understand—and, if possible, answer—the oldest, biggest questions we have posed about the universe and ourselves. Taking as territory everything from the Big Bang to the rise of civilization, Bryson seeks to understand how we got from there being nothing at all to there being us. To that end, he has attached himself to a host of the world’s most advanced (and often obsessed) archaeologists, anthropologists, and mathematicians, travelling to their offices, laboratories, and field camps. He has read (or tried to read) their books, pestered them with questions, apprenticed himself to their powerful minds. A Short History of Nearly Everything is the record of this quest, and it is a sometimes profound, sometimes funny, and always supremely clear and entertaining adventure in the realms of human knowledge, as only Bill Bryson can render it. Science has never been more involving or entertaining.”