Suggest me books for improving my general knowledge

So here’s the thing, I feel like I am so out of touch with reality it hurts.

How did I turn up to be this way? I was supposed to have great education because of the schools I’ve been to, but I don’t think I’ve learned a thing because of my disinterested teenage mind. I am putting an emphasis on the ‘great schools I’ve been to’ because it surrounds me with people who are well integrated, high functioning and generally brilliant/ competitive. Which makes my guilt and shame only grow. Now I am 25, former daily marijuana user for 5 years and my mind has turned into something I can’t even make sense of. I am 3 months clean yet still mostly numb and careless. I want to care about the world I am in, about people in my life but I am too detached from reality and now. The world‘s of people I interact with are too different from mine for me to feel like I have any common ground I can develop something onto. Every day I feel like I am building a smaller box for myself and it’s getting harder to find a path towards bigger boxes.

Now as I said, I just want to become more in touch with the reality people are living in. I want to know more about history and about things that will bring me a deeper sense of care for the daily. I want to broaden my perspective, to feel like I am not aloof. I want to learn about the struggles people face in the daily as well as social systemic issues I should know about. I don’t want to feel like a spoiled child who did not manage to grow up. And I am willing to take whatever action it requires, starting from curing my supposedly educated (worst kind) fraud ignorant ass.

So I am asking you to just write the first book that comes to your mind when you were reading my troubles.

by Tall_Meal_2732