Because of a severe version of an illness (ME/CFS: myalgic encephalomyelitis/chronic fatigue syndrome) i develloped after a covid infection, i have flare-ups lasting days, weeks, or even months, where i am completely stuck in my brain. i am unable to move, talk, communicate in any way (even phone), and to handle any sort of noise or light, i am basically in an isolation chamber with a feeding tube and completely alone with my thoughts and paralysed, thankfully though my brain is somewhat fuzzy but I can still think.
What I am looking for are books that can help me to survive these flare ups, basically how to be completely alone in your brain without distractions and deal with the trauma that comes with it, how to keep yourself disciplined even though you have been psychologically destroyed, how to keep hope, positivity, anything that would help survive these times, even just simple ideas of games to play in your head.
Anyways any help with finding books to help me with this (hopefully some that are simply written, due to blood circulation problems in my brain I am dumber than I used to be, and available in audiobook form, even when I’m not in flare ups I’m not able to tolerate enough light to read) I would be extremely thankful.
And please unless you are an expert, don’t give me health advice, my situation is bad, believe me I’ve tried everything. Also I’ve tried to read some of the autobiographies of people with Lock-In syndrome but to be honest their situation felt really different and I didn’t really get help from it.
by YolkyBoii